Test Fight

The test begins now

I thought I was smart, I thought I was right

I thought it better not to fight

I thought there was a virtue in always being cool

So when it came time to fight

I thought I'll just step aside

And that the time would prove you wrong

And that you... Would be the fool

I don't know where the sun beams end 

And the star lights begin 

It's all a mystery

Oh to fight is to defend if it's not

Now then tell me when would be the time that you would stand up

And be a man

For to lose I could accept but to surrender

I just wept and regretted this moment oh that I...

I was the fool

I don't know where the sun beams end 

And the star lights begin 

It's all a mystery

And I don't know how a man decides what's right for his

Own life

It's all a mystery

Cause I'm a man not a boy and there are things

You can't avoid you have to face them

When you're not prepared to face them

If I could I would but you're with him now it'd do no good

I should have fought him but instead I let him...

I let him take it

I don't know where the sun beams end 

And the star lights begin 

It's all a mystery

And I don't know how a man decides what's right for his

Own life

It's all a mystery

The test is over now

"Test Fight" by The Flaming Lips

*I'm going for what I want and I won't stop. It's much more difficult than I thought, but it doesn't matter, it has to be mine.

Yeah, the test began today and the results made me feel fine. I learned from the mistakes I made last Friday. I guess today I was more self-confident because this is what I really want, it's neither the most comfortable position, nor the nearest place, but it's what I know how to do, it's my life, it's one of my dearest ideals.

Success still depends on many factors. Most of them are not in my hands, but I have to take advange of the one that indeed is in my hands. The test is going to be continued tomorrow. I have to give and do my best. I have to take the risk, which by the way, makes me nervous and anxious... But I know it, there's no other option.

Paola Paola Paola, just go and take it, it's yours. --Sorry, now I'm talking to the imaginary Paola, hahaha, I'm my own imaginary friend--

I need to keep calm and everything will be ok. Of course, I also have to defeat my Achilles heel... Well, as the say... Just do it!

**Emm, I'm listening to The Flaming Lips again. And I'm not crying!! Hahaha. Is it that I'm really letting him go now?