Selfish Update

A while ago I was thinking this has been a weird year. Perhaps it's the weirdest year I can remember.

My shyness and hostility have reached their greatest level.
I've changed my mind thousands of times.
I've caused a lot of trouble.
I've been hurtful and have been hurt like never before.
The emotional side has been a real disaster.
I've met wonderful people, I've made great friends who have enriched my life beyond my own understanding... But, you know, I lost the one I used to love most... No, he got rid of me.
I've closed some interesting doors. Stupid me.
Pain has been sharp on me.
At times I've felt like I'm going mad.
I've betrayed myself once and again.
I'm not the same old me. He changed my whole life. Yes, I know, I shouldn't have let this happen. It's my fault. Yes, yes, yes, some may say I'm a cute thing, but I feel uncomfortable about this sensitivity, weakness and helplessness.
I've discovered the brightness of colours.
I've started enjoying little yet meaningful pleasures.
I've become an infinitely more introspective and thoughtful reader and writer.
I've had fruitful and rewarding professional experiences. I will always be grateful to those who have trusted me. Thanks for challenging me.
I finally own a mobile phone (dahh, what a surrender) :S
I have many plans, but I've given up to illusions.
Etc., etc.

I'm a whirl.
Always myself.