A Defeated Selfish

One hour ago I realized that the excitement I was feeling was just mine, that it was not shared. At the beginning I was afraid, I thought my past would reject my presence, but no, everything was OK, or so it seemed. But now my perception is different, and what I perceive is that He is running away from me, or, at least, that He is building a wall between us, that is, I guess He wants to keep a certain distance. Why? I do not know, but it makes me sad... Maybe it is because we have been out of touch for so much time, or maybe I was going too fast, but I think that inviting him to go out, as a friend, is not a daring step, is it? It seems as if I was not the only Selfish around here, ha?