A Subtle Selfish Change

Everybody can see it in my face
I'm ashamed
All blushed
I didn't use to be like this
They perceive something different in me
And I didn't know
Gosh, my brain refuses to listen.

New survey with the same people plus one (female):
Infatuation: 1
The real thing: 2
Thinks I'm completely mad: 1

Dahh, I need to get some sleep because this is quite frustrating.