Sunday Morning
Last night, for the first time in months, I just stood up and said, "hey, I want to sleep, good night." Ohh, it wasn't "I've got a headache, I'm going to bed", "I need some rest", "I feel miserably miserable, I'm going to sleep", or "maybe if I sleep for a while, I'll stop thinking and then will wake up a marvellous new person". Noooo, last night I just wanted to sleep because I felt like going to sleep. No sorrow, no pain, no anger. And let me tell you, I woke up and I was still the same person, but I started smiling, and I didn't think of him. And this is important because it was incredible, I just woke up very early (come on, it was Sunday, haha) and not feeling even more tired than when I went to bed... I was really fine. Well, some minutes later I remembered what I had been dreaming, and it's strange, I don't understand why, precisely now, I dreamt with him.
The dream was more or less like this: As usual, I can't remember the context of the dream scene, but I know for sure we were sitting at a table drinking coffee in a white room all covered with thin whitish curtains, the shiny sun gave an amazing atmoshpere to the room, it was like those times when the sunlight seems beige or honey-golden and you can even see the minute dust particles flowing in the air. Well, inside the room there was nothing else but the table, chairs and three people. It was him, me and someone else (no, I just can recall the third one was a man, but I have no idea who he was). I can't say what we were talking about --yeah, I should have written the dream when I woke up-- the thing is that the third one was completely apart while we, (he and I) were dangerously close to each other while we spoke... Dahh, I don't understand why it seemed a natural way to keep a conversation when it is not that natural, above all with someone you want to forget!! Then, we were walking down an unknown street; there were many people who suddenly disappeared and it was only the two of us against the wind, it was blowing so hard that we could hardly keep on walking. that's the last thing I remember... I've got the feeling that it was at that moment that I woke up because if not I wouldn't remember the dream at all, or so I guess.
Haha, after this little digression, I'm back to the thing. No, I haven't forgotten... I'm sure I need more than plain time to forget because this is beyond my will, but I can't stay in the same place forever. Last Saturday-Sunday night I received a surprise that took me back to earth.
AGC, your very first word brought back all the memories. Nobody else has ever called me like that, it's only you, so sweet. I'm glad I took the risk, and that it was you. I'm also glad you dared. As far as I remember, the shy one here is me, not you :P. Hey doc, do you remember the rides?
The dream was more or less like this: As usual, I can't remember the context of the dream scene, but I know for sure we were sitting at a table drinking coffee in a white room all covered with thin whitish curtains, the shiny sun gave an amazing atmoshpere to the room, it was like those times when the sunlight seems beige or honey-golden and you can even see the minute dust particles flowing in the air. Well, inside the room there was nothing else but the table, chairs and three people. It was him, me and someone else (no, I just can recall the third one was a man, but I have no idea who he was). I can't say what we were talking about --yeah, I should have written the dream when I woke up-- the thing is that the third one was completely apart while we, (he and I) were dangerously close to each other while we spoke... Dahh, I don't understand why it seemed a natural way to keep a conversation when it is not that natural, above all with someone you want to forget!! Then, we were walking down an unknown street; there were many people who suddenly disappeared and it was only the two of us against the wind, it was blowing so hard that we could hardly keep on walking. that's the last thing I remember... I've got the feeling that it was at that moment that I woke up because if not I wouldn't remember the dream at all, or so I guess.
Haha, after this little digression, I'm back to the thing. No, I haven't forgotten... I'm sure I need more than plain time to forget because this is beyond my will, but I can't stay in the same place forever. Last Saturday-Sunday night I received a surprise that took me back to earth.
AGC, your very first word brought back all the memories. Nobody else has ever called me like that, it's only you, so sweet. I'm glad I took the risk, and that it was you. I'm also glad you dared. As far as I remember, the shy one here is me, not you :P. Hey doc, do you remember the rides?
Now you're here like an airbag!!! You're a great friend and I'll never let you go again :)
*Woohoo, the heavy rain this evening was comforting beyond belief.
*Woohoo, the heavy rain this evening was comforting beyond belief.
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